The story of the song begins in December 2016, when Anton Ra was exploring a collaboration with Kevin, a vocalist from Rheine. After receiving some initial musical ideas from him—specifically a verse and a chorus—Anton reworked them beyond recognition. Once the collaboration with Kevin came to an end, Anton Ra composed a bridge and the second part of the track to go with the existing verse and chorus, finally shaping the song’s musical structure.
At the end of that same year, Angela from Münster reached out with a proposal to join the band as a vocalist. Following discussions with the band members, her offer was accepted. In early 2020, while filming a video at their rehearsal space in Münster, Angela’s vocals were officially tracked. Her voice can still be heard on the single version of the song. However, her vocals were omitted from the album version due to a lack of long-term viability for her involvement in the future of Mixte.
Fun fact: Anton’s vocals—much like on the track Massive—had been recorded earlier inside his car, as he didn’t have access to a proper rehearsal studio at the time. Additionally, the band’s then-guitarist Sven tracked a couple of rhythm guitar parts for Able to Live, but they ultimately didn’t make the final cut due to technical execution flaws.
In the second video version from 2025, both Angela and Sven are absent, despite appearing in the original cut. There were two reasons for this: their minor personal interest in the project’s creative direction (leading to their eventual departure) and Anton Ra’s subsequent desire to see Mixte perform live strictly as a trio—viewing it as the most optimal and streamlined format for the band’s workflow.
The lyrics were penned in 2019, inspired by the struggles of personal growth, with roots tracing back to conflicting relationships with parents. This complex theme blended perfectly with the song’s intricate structure, where shifts in key and tempo mirror the inner evolution of a searching soul who ultimately attains what they were looking for.
